I'm complaining.

I'm having one of those days where everything is getting to me. I keep thinking about where I wish I was with my life and being unsatisfied. Sadly, I even regret getting a degree in college. I've been looking for a new job for a while. Even before I was let go from the last one. I have had a couple of interviews but I still don't have the qualifications others do to get the job. Having this degree, I think, has actually made me overqualified for common jobs I would  be happy to take. Apparently being a pre-med student hurts me too. One person actually told me they wouldn't hire me because I wasn't going to be a "lifer" at their company. How idiotic...

I have been having to deal with the mistake of ever getting married too. My ex is the dumbest person alive. I can't believe how selfish he is and how much he doesn't care about his own son. He actually thought leaving pain pills and a loaded gun on the counter of his home with his son there was a brilliant idea. Oliver is too freaking smart to not figure it out especially if he watches someone else mess with it first. I can only hope he has good enough role models around him to not be like that when he is older.

Thanks to the financial burden of going through a divorce and the bills I got left with...I still leave in my parents' home. I'm thankful I have parents nice enough to let us live here, but I never expected to live here this long. I imagined Oliver and I moving out this year, but now that doesn't seem like reality anymore. I'm so unhappy here.

If someone was to ask me five years ago where I was going to be today I would have thought married, with two kids living in a home of our own, working towards medical school/ PA school and with a half decent job in the medical field. And here I am a single mom of one, jobless, living at home with my parents, and taking one class a semester. No, I haven't forgot that I have an amazing kid who is smart and healthy. I have the best boyfriend who is always there and loves me very much. I wish things had turned out better....now all I can hope is that it will get better...

Birthdays and stuff..

This year is already not friendly. I was pretty busy to start off. Zack's birthday was the 8th of January and we celebrated the following weekend. I got us a hotel room so we could relax and not have to worry about everyone else. We went to dinner at Squatters and then to Club Habits. It was fun!

Oliver's birthday was on the 18th of January. We celebrated at Kangaroo Zoo with his friends and family. He had way too much fun!

I lost my job the following Monday for no reason. Yep, no reason. My boss didn't give me one and a couple days later  when I talked to my manager he didn't know why. They even told unemployment that. I feel used and abused. Nuf said.

For Valentine's Day Zack and I went to Rodizio Grill and the movie Safe Haven. Zack gave me a gorgeous promise ring and a box of chocolates. I gave him a big bag of candy/food and a gift card for dinner one night. It was nice to have one good Valentine's Day in my life. Something always goes wrong every year and this year nothing bad happened.